Amira's World

Hello :) Just wanted to drop by and vent it out all here. Its 27th of December 2021, only a couple of days until we reach 2022. I would like to leave this feeling behind, let it stay in 2021. 2021 has been hectic and a roller coaster all at once, specifically December. Yesterday- 26/12/2021 was a mess. I experienced tonnes of negative emotions. Be it sad, frustrating, confused, mad and sick. Despite that I'm not fully healed and recovered from my 'other friend group' incident, it was pretty hard for me to cope with any conflict especially when it is related to friendships. I am currently still confused to let new people into my life all because of trust issues, whether I am keeping the right people in my life rn and am I strong enough to face more challenges in the future- with or without the ones I care. Basically what happened yesterday was I started to question the things I do with this one particular person, idk if I am able to allow him being in my life- like what if ...

Hello :) Been here for the third time this week, I guess? Finally, it's Friday = mid semester break!! Will be taking a day off to rest before pushing myself to settle my workloads hehe. I feel a lot better today- I would say this week was kinda rough, but I made it to this day :)  The title was kinda random, I thought of it just now while I was lying and thinking what I should berbuka with tonight hahaha! Oh, I've been fasting for a week, btw. No specific reason- I can save some money + diet + just malas nak fikir 'what to eat today' everyday ;) Hopefully there's a difference in my weight, if not I will still try to diet hahaha! Okay, back to the title.... I've been thinking about 'one thing that I (kinda) lost and I feel sad about even up to this day' Then, the word 'friendship' came in my mind. What about it? Well... Long story short, I think I've mentioned about it before in my previous post about me having issues with some of my friends. ...

Hello :) Woke up feeling very tired along with unnecessary headache :,) Had a late crying session on my bed, alone last night. The crying session was together with ranting. I ranted to God about what I feel- tonnes of mixed feelings. Be it matters about friendship, relationship and future. I ranted everything to Him. I was not really sad last night, but I just felt that I needed a good cry to keep going. Prayed as much as I want too, asking for a nice journey ahead me. I also asked Him to give me the strength to continue inspiring others as I continue my journey. Despite the swollen eyes and a bit of a headache, I'm glad and blessed to be able to be as fragile as I can. The satisfaction was different than ranting with another person. The spiritual connection was so overwhelming. Honestly, I don't really know who I can rely to since I'm not a fan of telling someone what I'm actually feeling. But I know, I would always have this one 'safe place' to tell everything...