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Just a Little Bit of Rant

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Woke up feeling very tired along with unnecessary headache :,) Had a late crying session on my bed, alone last night. The crying session was together with ranting. I ranted to God about what I feel- tonnes of mixed feelings. Be it matters about friendship, relationship and future. I ranted everything to Him. I was not really sad last night, but I just felt that I needed a good cry to keep going. Prayed as much as I want too, asking for a nice journey ahead me. I also asked Him to give me the strength to continue inspiring others as I continue my journey. Despite the swollen eyes and a bit of a headache, I'm glad and blessed to be able to be as fragile as I can. The satisfaction was different than ranting with another person. The spiritual connection was so overwhelming. Honestly, I don't really know who I can rely to since I'm not a fan of telling someone what I'm actually feeling. But I know, I would always have this one 'safe place' to tell everything without being judged or worried about what people would think of me. I feel much better now even my face is swollen and I feel kinda lightheaded. Just a reminder, for everyone and even to myself; if you ever feel you have no one to rely to, He is always there to listen :,) I guess that's all for now, I have tonnes of things to start with hahaha!

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