Amira's World

Hello :) Just wanted to drop by and vent it out all here. Its 27th of December 2021, only a couple of days until we reach 2022. I would like to leave this feeling behind, let it stay in 2021. 2021 has been hectic and a roller coaster all at once, specifically December. Yesterday- 26/12/2021 was a mess. I experienced tonnes of negative emotions. Be it sad, frustrating, confused, mad and sick. Despite that I'm not fully healed and recovered from my 'other friend group' incident, it was pretty hard for me to cope with any conflict especially when it is related to friendships. I am currently still confused to let new people into my life all because of trust issues, whether I am keeping the right people in my life rn and am I strong enough to face more challenges in the future- with or without the ones I care. Basically what happened yesterday was I started to question the things I do with this one particular person, idk if I am able to allow him being in my life- like what if ...

Hello :) Been here for the third time this week, I guess? Finally, it's Friday = mid semester break!! Will be taking a day off to rest before pushing myself to settle my workloads hehe. I feel a lot better today- I would say this week was kinda rough, but I made it to this day :)  The title was kinda random, I thought of it just now while I was lying and thinking what I should berbuka with tonight hahaha! Oh, I've been fasting for a week, btw. No specific reason- I can save some money + diet + just malas nak fikir 'what to eat today' everyday ;) Hopefully there's a difference in my weight, if not I will still try to diet hahaha! Okay, back to the title.... I've been thinking about 'one thing that I (kinda) lost and I feel sad about even up to this day' Then, the word 'friendship' came in my mind. What about it? Well... Long story short, I think I've mentioned about it before in my previous post about me having issues with some of my friends. ...

Hello :) Woke up feeling very tired along with unnecessary headache :,) Had a late crying session on my bed, alone last night. The crying session was together with ranting. I ranted to God about what I feel- tonnes of mixed feelings. Be it matters about friendship, relationship and future. I ranted everything to Him. I was not really sad last night, but I just felt that I needed a good cry to keep going. Prayed as much as I want too, asking for a nice journey ahead me. I also asked Him to give me the strength to continue inspiring others as I continue my journey. Despite the swollen eyes and a bit of a headache, I'm glad and blessed to be able to be as fragile as I can. The satisfaction was different than ranting with another person. The spiritual connection was so overwhelming. Honestly, I don't really know who I can rely to since I'm not a fan of telling someone what I'm actually feeling. But I know, I would always have this one 'safe place' to tell everything...

Hello :) My life is getting busy, thanks to the assignments and tests ;) Currently in my seventh week of semester 1, final year but my mid semester break will be next week. A week, I can rest and finish some work at my own pace, thank God! Just wanted to update that I had a migraine and I basically slept the entire day despite I'm fasting :,) At least I made it until berbuka lmao. Just finished studying and planning to kemas my room a bit. I'll be sleeping alone, onwards for at least 2 weeks (?) since my roommate went home for the break. Anyway, I feel kinda frustrated for not being able to finish my goal for the past few days. Then suddenly today migraine, but somehow I managed to catch up a bit. Nothing to submit pun actually, but more to saja nak finish my work. At least as for now, I managed to finish revising for tomorrow's test. I'm planning not to push myself too much since dateline lama lagi and bukannya I have no progress at all right? Other than that, I just w...

 Hello :) Haven't been updating for months, so I decided to drop by and update on certain matters. Looking back at my latest post, I would consider last two semesters were definitely a roller coaster lol. Then, I managed to pursue my internship which I would probably update about it on another post hehe. I honestly have nothing much to update, as for now, but I would really like to express something. Since harini is Wednesday- supposedly cuti la kan from classes, but I had replacement class instead. I have one in the morning and another one after Maghrib haih. The morning class was kinda fun since the topic was kinda interesting- Black Death. Very relatable with the pandemic but that one seems more critical since no one really knew what to do to contain the disease. Unlike now, we obviously have the knowledge and technology to find the cure for the disease. Basically, that is today. As for the time being, I am actually trying to control my emotions. I don't really think that th...

Hello, I hope anyone who reads this is in the pink.  I decided to drop by and curahkan my thoughts here since I'm trying my best to not suppress my feelings atm. It is because overthinking these days might drain me and it might not be good for me because I'm honestly in the mood for everything- sementara semester break and also sementara I have the motivation to do anything I want lol. Idk if you guys find it weird or you guys perasan ke tak yang I tend to rantttttt then suddenly I came out with something good to sedapkan hati sendiri hahaha! Basically, that's just how I make myself feel better and that's also the reason why I'm really good at keeping everything to myself lol. Soooo here's goes my rant.... Firstly, I would like to say that I'm so grateful for being blessed with good friends- I have not really good friends, but I'm still grateful for their existence since they really taught me a lot. As much as I love my family, that is also how much I lo...

Hello, everyone! I hope you're doing fine :) It's been a while since I updated this blog. I'm finally done with this semester! Just submitted my last assignment and feel like dropping by to update on what I'm feeling right now. Honestly, I've been trying to be consistent in what I'm currently doing which are skipping and painting. I just feel that it's time for me to discover new hobbies, so that I would feel much better. I would always feel demotivated and tired for no reason, so it's time for me to change that by being more productive. Btw, cakap pasal skipping, I'm slowly getting better at it :) I would skip 1000 skips a day and I'm glad that my time record has been improving, which is better than a month ago lol.  Okay, back to what I was feeling huhu. I can sense that I've been thinking so much about what's going to happen in the future. Honestly, I think a lot (sometimes) because I'm just scared of what would I face in the futur...

Hello everyone! For the first post of this blog, I just want to explain the roots of this blog lmao! Basically, this blog existed for almost a decade already. I've been trying to get access to this blog for so long and finally I managed to access it last night. After going through my archived posts- which was super cringey lol, I can see that how I loved to express and share my activities and my feelings online. Thus, I think I should just continue blogging and share anything that I feel like sharing :) For the ones who feel like reading my blog, you are most welcome to do so. I'm also open for any discussion on anything since I also wish to use this platform to spread kindness, knowledge and positivity :) Anyway, I really hope that I get to manage and update this blog as frequent as I can because I really love sharing lol. Have a nice day, bye for now!