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(random) Update

 Hello :)


Haven't been updating for months, so I decided to drop by and update on certain matters. Looking back at my latest post, I would consider last two semesters were definitely a roller coaster lol. Then, I managed to pursue my internship which I would probably update about it on another post hehe. I honestly have nothing much to update, as for now, but I would really like to express something.

Since harini is Wednesday- supposedly cuti la kan from classes, but I had replacement class instead. I have one in the morning and another one after Maghrib haih. The morning class was kinda fun since the topic was kinda interesting- Black Death. Very relatable with the pandemic but that one seems more critical since no one really knew what to do to contain the disease. Unlike now, we obviously have the knowledge and technology to find the cure for the disease. Basically, that is today.

As for the time being, I am actually trying to control my emotions. I don't really think that this week is challenging but I just feel that it's just the time you feel tired and numb, for some strange reason. I bet everyone would go through this phase at some time. I'm just too sensitive this past few days. Kinda tiring because I can randomly cry any time whenever I feel overwhelmed. Other than that, I've been trying to accept the fact of not getting something despite you love them so much. Hence, I would say I'm currently in the phase of 'letting go'. Maybe not letting 'someone' go but more to letting go the feelings I had for this person. Definitely a plot twist for me, I thought I would never have feelings for anyone anymore after what I faced a few years back. I took almost 4 years to completely move on from the person and I'm glad that I'm finally over it :) Fast forward, I found someone that I feel comfortable to talk to every single day after knowing him for some time but I guess we were better off as friends. I totally don't mind since I hate forcing things. But somehow this person has been a pain the ass too, at times. Long story short, I went through a lot of emotions lah with this person- marah, sedih, happy, grateful and tonnes more hahaha! 

I guess thats all for now, my alarm rang already so I have to mandi hehe. Hope to do more updates in the future :) Have a nice day, to myself and anyone who reads this (if ada lol)

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