Amira's World

1.45am // Sunday I'm currently outside, kinda scared of going back to my room. Scared of overthinking. I have no mood left to do any work, but I'm keeping my eyes open to be able to stay here, outside. I've been thinking a lot lately, idek what triggers me so much lately. It may be because I care so much about the people around me and I get anxious if I don't know their update. Simple example to this is that one person that I cherish the most, my best friend (iykyk). He's been silent for quite some time and this worries me. I've been holding myself from texting and worrying about him. One, may be because of my ego and two, he asked me not to respond to his text until he explains what happened? Another fact that makes me kinda sad is that a special person to me does not even wish a 'Happy Birthday' on my special day :,) Nevertheless, I just think I'm not important to some people and as much as it hurts me- because care for them so much, I have to acce...

This is the beginning of every thought that I have once in a while and does not need any title for it. At this moment, I feel very tired and overwhelmed. Maybe I slept with a heavy heart while crying and praying to God, please let me sleep so that I don't have to think this much. This week has been draining me emotionally, idk why. I feel unmotivated to finish my work, I mean it's done, but it still requires a little touch up here and there. As much as I understand about myself, not being able to do that would equal to "you're weak" and "what's wrong with you?" and also "you need to do something". All of this is to make sure I feel good about myself, despite people around me, reminding me that I'm doing fine. My friends obviously are going through the same feeling as me, unmotivated. Besides that, I've been pushing myself to not look too unmotivated and make myself look fine in front of them hence to continue to motivate them since ...

Hello :) It's only 5 days into 2022 and I've started to overthink. It's weird this time, I think a lot about my love life. The one thing that I decided not to think about this year, yes, I'm  currently over thinking about it :/ Nothing serious, but there's some events that happened that made me think about it. One of it is about a guy that I used to be close to. People have been saying that we kinda have feelings for each other. To be honest, I once had a crush on him lmao but not anymore. It was 3 years ago, but I still can recall all the things I did just to impress him hahaha! Sadly, I decided to move on and meet new people because he seems not ready for commitments, thus see me as a close friend of his. Fortunately, I moved on and accepted he was not for me. I never regretted the things I did because my feelings were genuine and I did all I can to impress and at least show some interest. Fast forward, we still have the same chemistry as the first we met each oth...

Hello!  It's finally my birthday again after so long lol. I wanted to drop by and drop some words as I think this year is going to be my best year yet, 2022. This is a letter for myself, to myself :) Shazlin Amira, I can't promise you that this is going to be your best year, but what I can promise is that it would be better than 2021. 2021 has quite damaged you but it's okay. You would always have the will to rise up and get things done- continuing what you should be doing as a person, student, friend, daughter and human. Thank you to Allah and all my loved ones for being there for me. I would like to say that I am super proud of you. You definitely went through a lot and for you to still be here for yourself and all the ones you love, that means the world to me. Today on your birthday, I would like to wish the best of luck in whatever you do. I truly believe in you, so do everyone who genuinely cares about you. I hope you would enjoy and cherish every single thing througho...