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Hello! 

It's finally my birthday again after so long lol. I wanted to drop by and drop some words as I think this year is going to be my best year yet, 2022. This is a letter for myself, to myself :)

Shazlin Amira,

I can't promise you that this is going to be your best year, but what I can promise is that it would be better than 2021. 2021 has quite damaged you but it's okay. You would always have the will to rise up and get things done- continuing what you should be doing as a person, student, friend, daughter and human. Thank you to Allah and all my loved ones for being there for me. I would like to say that I am super proud of you. You definitely went through a lot and for you to still be here for yourself and all the ones you love, that means the world to me. Today on your birthday, I would like to wish the best of luck in whatever you do. I truly believe in you, so do everyone who genuinely cares about you. I hope you would enjoy and cherish every single thing throughout this year, be it bad or good. Learn from every mistake like you always do and improve. Times may be bad since it would not be sunshine all the time, but I truly believe you'll be fine, it's just a phase and it will get better. You started 2022 quite good- pledging to donate your organ, that's a big step that you took not only for this year but for the next few years. You're doing great atm and you would continue to be great for the next months of 2022. '2' has been your favourite number and I definitely can feel that you love this age so much since its 'double 2' lol. Thus, please enjoy this year as much as you can since it would also be your last year degree. 

My aim for this year are to be good and nicer to myself. I believe that I've been kinda harsh on myself in 2021 and I want to improve that. Next, I want to contribute more to society, as much as I can. Pledging to be an organ donor has been a good start thus I want to do more. Other than that, I just want to enjoy what 2022 can offer me, peacefully. No more being hard on myself- pushing myself to accept and adapt with the things that I know that I'm not comfortable with. I would also want to cherish and appreciate the ones close to me and be kind to everyone. I would like to manage my empathy and anger too lol. Basically, I would like to focus much more on myself for 2022 :) 

Dropping this here so that I have a reason to keep going and make everyone, especially myself proud of me. Bismillahirahmanirrahim, lets start 2022 happily and finish it happily too :)

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