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Finally back :)

Hello, everyone! I hope you're doing fine :)

It's been a while since I updated this blog. I'm finally done with this semester! Just submitted my last assignment and feel like dropping by to update on what I'm feeling right now. Honestly, I've been trying to be consistent in what I'm currently doing which are skipping and painting. I just feel that it's time for me to discover new hobbies, so that I would feel much better. I would always feel demotivated and tired for no reason, so it's time for me to change that by being more productive. Btw, cakap pasal skipping, I'm slowly getting better at it :) I would skip 1000 skips a day and I'm glad that my time record has been improving, which is better than a month ago lol. 

Okay, back to what I was feeling huhu. I can sense that I've been thinking so much about what's going to happen in the future. Honestly, I think a lot (sometimes) because I'm just scared of what would I face in the future. I feel the need to be mentally ready for what's going to happen. It kinda sounds like I'm scared of failing. This goes to everything that I'm facing right now- studies and life choices. I honestly am tired of thinking a lot. It really just drains you and doesn't bring you any benefit. I always feel bad for overthinking. I can feel that I'm torturing myself, but it's normal for us, humans to always have doubts in life?  (I guess lol). I've been fighting this feeling for quite some time, especially during this pandemic. Besides that, I have this habit of suppressing my emotions, but I find it really hard to do so these days. This pandemic itself has challenged my mental health so much, to suppress my emotions even more would absolutely damage me. 

But, as I was driving siang tadi, I don't really find the good thing of thinking too much. It's not that what you're thinking would happen. It may happen, but we never know until the actual time comes. I mean it's important to think about the future sometimes so that you can plan it wisely, but we also need to think wisely. I mean, think when we need to decide on something and not thinking just for the sake of mengisi masa lapang because it would definitely make you think so much, to the point that you question everything that happened and maybe the ones that belum terjadi pun you akan terfikir. If in the future, you have to face the things you fear the most, it's okay! Its probably a lesson or reminder for us to improve and be better in the future :) Take it as a challenge or motivation. It sucks that sometimes we tend to overthink and forget all the blessings that we already have but that's normal, honestly. We, humans may have reached a point that we feel tired of everything. It's okay to be tired, just take some rest and you'll be fine! Don't push yourself too much :)

Anyway, for the penutup (lol) I would like to remind you to always be grateful with what God has blessed us with. There will be times that you don't get what you want and you feel frustrated, mad and disappointed about it. But trust me, things will get better and just bersangka baik with everything that happened. It may be easier said than done, but I do believe we are able to get through it :) Just think that you've survived up to this day, what makes you incapable of going through this? The key of it is 'be positive' and 'trust the process'. Well, sometimes I forget what I say and just continue overthinking lol but at one point I believe that it would get better. So, think as much as you want, but not for too long. I guess that's all, I can't believe that I suddenly rant a lot lmao! Anyway, have a nice week, stay safe and hope to see you guys in my next post lol :)


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