Hello :)
Been here for the third time this week, I guess? Finally, it's Friday = mid semester break!! Will be taking a day off to rest before pushing myself to settle my workloads hehe. I feel a lot better today- I would say this week was kinda rough, but I made it to this day :)
The title was kinda random, I thought of it just now while I was lying and thinking what I should berbuka with tonight hahaha! Oh, I've been fasting for a week, btw. No specific reason- I can save some money + diet + just malas nak fikir 'what to eat today' everyday ;) Hopefully there's a difference in my weight, if not I will still try to diet hahaha! Okay, back to the title.... I've been thinking about 'one thing that I (kinda) lost and I feel sad about even up to this day' Then, the word 'friendship' came in my mind. What about it? Well... Long story short, I think I've mentioned about it before in my previous post about me having issues with some of my friends. I forgave and (kinda) moved on from it, but obviously not completely? Simply because it was not easy for me to accept what was happening and what I had to go through when the conflict was happening. I think I lost a friend who was once close, this may sound kinda toxic, but she ended up with another friend of mine. Seeing them being close, as close I am with her was hurtful to me, but I have to admit that as long as she's happy- that's all that matters. God blessed me with a group of nice people that who I assume as my tulang belakang today- besides than my family and myself. I may lose one thing, but God replaced it with a group of nice people :) I may not be close anymore with that 'one' person, but I still pray to God to protect and give her all the happiness she deserves even if she is happy without me. That's the first thing that you need to expect in friendships. Not only that, I lost one of my closest friends back in high school just because of a misunderstanding. Rapat dia to the point buat everything together, be it makan, tidur, belajar, sedih, happy, dari single sampai ada bf. We're still trying to fix things, but we all know that it may look kinda awkward lol. Anyway, things happen and it happens for a reason. To conclude this point is to expect that we 'might' lose that one person even tak pernah terdetik pun it would happen. I'm not saying that it would happen to us but take precautions. That sh*t was painful as hell and I wished I wouldn't love them as hard as I can lmao.
Another thing that you need to expect in friendships is that you do not need to communicate everyday to sustain a friendship. I've been in both situations- talking everyday and talking almost once a year (take that as a sarcasm lol). What I can conclude is obviously communication with friends is not the same dengan having a romantic relationship. The special thing about friendships is that, biarlah cakap setahun sekali untuk wish raya je, but you guys know the fact that you guys would have each other's back anytime. Compared to romantic relationships, we tend to talk all the time and reassure each other on certain things (yang couple jelah tau apadia lol) unless you guys jenis tak kisah and update on important matters je. Talking with a friend everyday makes no difference to me, quality friendship tu really depend on the sincerity of us towards the friendship. So, cakap jarang ke selalu ke sama je.
For now, that's all I have. If ada lagi I would definitely add more hehe. In a nutshell, I never thought that I would lose friends since I have no issues of making new friends and staying cool with them for a long period of time. Honestly, I never hold grudges towards my friends because I love all my friends dearly. They've been the shoulder for me to cry on and the ears that listened to all my problems at least once throughout our friendship. But one thing I'm sure of is no matter what happened between me and my friends I would cherish and forever grateful for what they have done for me- good or bad. The bad ones is because they have made me better understand their character and it would become a lesson to me in the future :) Anyway, hope everyone would have a blessed week! See you when I see you
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