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 Wednesday // 12:57pm

It's been almost a month since I lost myself. I've never been this heartbroken and sad before. This just shows how much I care for that person I call 'my home'. With all my heart, I still wish the best for you despite not being able to see it with my own eyes- I leave that to God. I let Him take care of you through my prayers. At this point, I'm still trying to digest all the things that happened and letting go the things that hurt me. Hard but I have to do this and not give up. 

Besides than healing and moving on from this, I just want to mention how mysterious life works. I met someone while all of this was happening. Funny, how I get comfortable with him so easily (lowkey the other side of me thought this sucks lol) but sad how I feel this 'comfort' I'm feeling is slowly fading. Somehow I never regret knowing you, I believe God sent you to me for a reason- to show that good people still exist. Well, I try to take it that way hahaha! He won't be able to know this, but I just wanted to let it out here. He had the same interest as mine that I rarely find in other people. I'm not really good at expressing my feelings towards people anymore. Hence, I choose to just walk away and go back to the time when we were strangers. I hope God blesses you and your family, always. 

At this particular time, I am trying to accept everything that has happened. It is unfortunate for me to accept 2 things that does not favor me at once but I accept this as a test from God to make me stronger in the future. I do feel that I am no longer capable of holding everything to myself. I learned to let go and leave all this to God. I prayed and ranted to Him a lot lately. I am glad I feel better whenever I do so. 

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